I want to be the outgoing type that can keep a party goin?

But unless I drink 2 or 3 I feel like I don't even want to be around anyone. I don't want to be this way my husband even says that we don't have company like my sis n law does because of me and my attitude but I don't want to be a party crasher I just don't feel like company all of the time and more of a home body and family woman . Am I depressed I feel like I am sometimes..Because I don't like the whole crowd scene sometimes is something wrong with me ??? Hubby seems to think I should be up to all of the party scene and then the clean up by myself the next day I dont know please help..By the way been together for 8 years have 4 children..